Ups and Downs

So I have been reading the works of Eckhart Tolle over the last few weeks and I guess we come to things when we most need them.

His philosophy is all about being in the "now", about not clinging to the past or being a victim of your own past, and about not craving a future which will never come. Its a very Buddhist concept and I'm sure Mr Tolle would be the first to admit that that's where he got his idea from.

What he's done is put the message in plain english, so the even the most simple minded of us can grasp it. The last few weeks however, have tested my grasp of these teachings to the fullest. First there was the big shake-up in my working life, then last week I got the results of a series of blood tests which indicate I have Lupus. Basically my immune system has turned on my body and begun attacking it.

This is all very new to me, and I'd be the first to admit I know very little about the subject, I only realised something was wrong when I could no longer get my diamond ring on cos my knuckles had swollen up! Over the last few months I had noticed all of my joints were becoming more and more painful, and that I was feeling tired a lot more than I should be. I was putting it down to over zealous exercise and the menopause, well now I know differently.

I've got to have a lot more tests done, and the decline isn't rapid - well not so far - so hopefully by staying fit and eating well I should be able to stave off the worst of it all.

Just goes to show that there's very little point in planning too far ahead, being in the now is what counts!